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i had it with DPHS

Nov. 23rd, 2009 | 12:33 am

im leaving....

i cant TAKE the DANCE @!#$ MAGENT with all the shit i have to go through every day just becasuse its a magnet

i dont even LIKE half the people in the magent and most of them are airheads that think nothing but their looks and frown upon people like me. Also i have to worry day in and day out bout the work, payments that do nothing and keeping me in line. Also the paperwork ontop of my Acdemic work which im Failing this year for no reason. Dance i dont even like it there anymore, they are not like the family i have back at my studio that feels like my second home sometimes when my mother hates me and i have my studo headmaster as my second mother because she raised me from the time i could walk.

im sorry for my DP family.....you guys were,,the only people keeping me sane at school and i didnt want to leave you guys because you are like another family to me and its tearing me to peices saying this but i cant go on putting a smile in front of my sadness that the magents doing to me. I love you guys to death and its going to hurt not seeing you every morning with your funny jokes, smile, and most importantlly the support of friends that i never gotten till i came and meet you guys at DP. So im sorry Val, Erin, Alex, and everyone else im just mentally gone and theres not much to do....and im telling my mother i cant handle it anymore with the magent and she wont be pleased but rather not see me suffer.


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Nov. 22nd, 2009 | 11:30 pm


....not happy ggrrr

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ugh P:

Nov. 20th, 2009 | 09:45 pm

this whole week was just bad

i hate having a cold especially during break and one week of STILL being sick is painfull and sleepy i feel like nodding off

missed school blahaha nearly killed my self in dance by having a breathing problem due to not moving for days and being sick blahaha got to dance at FDM

so much for a break XP

but i do get to hopefully spend a day with noelle -heart-

so someone cure me plz so i can return to feeling better and not choughing my lungs out

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shitty day X(

Oct. 1st, 2009 | 07:03 pm

geez this day couldnt of gotten worse that it was already was

I hate my chem teacher and i was struggling to get through her class and she doesnt even teach us anything and ignores the majority execpt those that are "smart". Now i got to pick up my grade because of that ONE test that dropped my grade from a lonely low B to a FREEKEN D and im pissed off bout that.

i studied i tried to teach me everything she didnt go over yet i failed because she included stuff that we werent even supposed to be going over with and i just had it

im leaving that class i dont care im not very happy bout that grade either

Ontop of that my mom is yelling at my brother about school and i mean i hate my bro but doesnt mean she can just start yelling him bout school thats not right

Then dance and cosplay are getting to me

im not sure if i even want to go to mickeys not so scary since im lacking the money to even go and really honestlly not motivated plus some of the things i plan arent going right and im messing up

dance is still being a pain and now i got to help them with the Homecoming costumes since apparentlly im the only one in the magent that

can sew somthing right and if i dont help i Fail

gah i hate ranting but i really needed to do this needs to go somewhere

just not alot of things going right and the only good part was being alone this morning at school

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~mhmmm la la stuffs ~

Sep. 2nd, 2009 | 04:00 pm

mhhmm not  much time to do stuff after school now~

especially signing up for my Spanish 2 class and Psychology 1 class which i am so excited for 

dance is quite literally being a pain in the butt not kidding i cant move with out my muscles screaming but thats how its always been in the begining of the year. the first day of dance you feel absolutly fine but tired and the next day you be limping around with the sore muscles that you just remebered that you had XD. ...mmmhm we finally have 2 guys in dance one is very tall and the other is a short guy who i belive is a freshy.  More paper work and all the fun stuff to sign. wooo...

Stuff to dooo

i got to do that video Q and A thing again cause i didnt know the file that i saved the video that i put together was in the folder with the first run so that got accidentlly deleted soo i got to do that again.

got to get that miku cosplay, do the kairi tutorial, and few other things

oh and get the stuff for the party which will be fun and hopefully everyone will enjoy themelves.

and can not wait to get this year over with

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ugh emo rant time

Aug. 15th, 2009 | 11:31 pm

yes so if u dont want to listen GET THE FUCK OUT  I DONT GIVE A DAMN*chough* ok moving on

ugh ok this has to do with no one or none of my friends

this has been on my chest for several months and soon to be close to a year and it hurts so i might as well say it and if i bring ur day down im sorry and i didnt mean too and im fine  just i dont want to keep it to myself any longer since it aches

so some of you know cassie right

my ex that sqrwed me over with michi and she was my first relationship what so ever and  yes i am little mad bout that with michi

well whats been bothring me that ........well

im still in love with her for the mother of god i am crying trying to write this

i miss her warm hugs

i miss her smiling at me when ever she could come to see me

i miss her making me feel safe

i miss her loving me and keeping me happy

i miss her personality

i miss admiring her

i just miss everything

she was my anchor, my angel and a lover

in otherwords i still fucking love her

i just wish i could rewind time

but i cant

im am afraid

im not brave to ask her

i am not strong

i hate  myself

i want to apolgize to everyone that i may have hurt of confused. Val i am sorry for everything. Danica same thing. I was hurt so bad i thought i could try to love someone else to take that ache away. so im just sorry for it. Im am stupid i know that.

i just wished it never happend

and sorry bout this rant

im fine

just little emotional and i needed to say something

and this is nothing to do with anyone so no one is to blame

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severed bonds

Aug. 11th, 2009 | 07:25 pm


that is all

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Aug. 7th, 2009 | 09:23 am

yay i has a Officer Jenny now

:) my Nurse Joy cosplay shall be even more awesome cause i have my buddy

still looking for a Chansy plushie 

now bella can stop those team rocket people

.......if they finish getting the cosplay done lol

now to find a wig *goes to ebay*

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Aug. 5th, 2009 | 12:18 pm

heres the link to the skit we did at AFO http://www.youtube.com/user/skipbeatgirl1?feature=moby#play/favorites/8/FuPtQwE9fhQ

lol it was fun

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couldnt sleep

Aug. 4th, 2009 | 12:48 am

ya cant sleep but will attept after this

going to go to downtown disney tommaro/today see andrea and jessica again so this shall be fun :)

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